im going home for a bit this weekend...its gonna be awesome...so much practicing...so much loving unit...amazing

 
dude, this fuckin service sucks ass....i think i might be switching..ill keep everyone posted

 
This one goes out to the homies.....So ive been doing pretty well recently...for the most part its all good. Getting good grades, playing well, practicing everyday...its what i need to do, well...MOST of what i need to do. Recently though ive been needing something else...something that everyone can probably relate to, i need someone to watch movies with. Now i know it sounds stupid, or juvenile or whatever...but i like watching movies alot...and i like watching them with girls better than almost anything else... all i want besides what i have right now is a girl to watch movies with...preferably a girlfriend...but that would just be an added bonus. see lots of guys dream about sex..and some guys dream about crazy circus sex with the likes of katie holmes and kirsten dunst... i dream of sitting on a couch watching movies with a girl... the girl changes every now and then...right now its usually this girl from my english class, shes really cool, she came to the four one six the other weekend for a party...but she brought a friend and i think she got a little embarassed (understandably so) after her friend dominated a conversation for a couple of hours, talking about some rather personal subject matter...i personally wasnt phased by this, but my friends and the girl definately were...when i walked them to their car to make sure they got there ok, the girl told me that she had a good time, and that she would see me in class on tuesday...but class was canceled on tuesday. that sucked. so i havent seen her in like a week and a half, and i havent called her because if she doesnt like me at all, and she just wanted to hang out as friends...then i dont want to bother her... well...alright fuck it... i havent called her because im scared, i used to be great at this, talking to girls... im just out of practice, too many girlfriends, too many fractured ventricles....i guess i just need more practice. I really hope that this girl actually likes me...though im not really sure at all, she's 22, shes a psychology major...i think shes really funny, shes smart, and shes really attractive to boot... when all of these things are added together my calculations tell me.....that shes way the fuck out of my league. which is to be expected...i mean come on an ugly fat guy doesnt really have much of a league at all, but there are a few things that beg inspection if nothing else.... so i start with my argument for her liking me, even if she doesnt know it. 1, she sits next to me every class. 2, she has dressed progressively more attractive (presumably in a bid to get my attention) every class since the beginning of the semester. 3, she has hinted on several occasions that shed like to hang out outside of class. 4, she compliments me all the time. thats pretty much it though....now to attack my argument. 1, i sit in the back corner...its not exactly an unpopular seat..and since im one of the few people in that class who isnt a complete fucking moron, it doesnt surprise me that she would sit near where i sit. 2, yeah no shit she dresses progressively more attractive as time goes on...maybe because of the weather getting way nicer each class....hello delusions much. 3, maybe she just wants to be friends.....fuckin...why is it that i am every girl ive ever liked idea of a great male friend....even my girlfriends...they all thought i would make a great friend too...fucking that sucks ass, and is probably the case. 4, im a complimentable guy...i make fun of people that suck so that people that dont suck can laugh, im a pretty smart guy *cough*understatement*cough* and as you can also pretty arrogant, also..my speeches unlike most of the rest of the students speeches...dont suck ass, that could explain that. so i guess ill just have to wait for tomorrow and see.
I went home on friday to pick up the car, and drop something off at robs house...something very tastealicious. we got there (we being me and coleman) and we gave them the stuff, they like the look, so we busted out his new bubbler and it was pretty status, then we busted out some double chambered facializing and it was rather facial, at this point my dome had been absolutely mangled by the stuff.. so i laid off, and we left a little bit after that. It was great to see everyone though. since they havent visited this semester ive only hung out with them a few times, and i miss those guys alot, i mean, i like having more to do than just sitting in robs room watching tv...but id rather be doing all the cool stuff i do now with them than with anyone else....no offense to the friends ive made this year. ive been thinking about it alot, and i think i may have sent the wrong messages this summer, in one of the entries on this thing i wrote that i was unsatisfied with my friendships with them, and it was in a way true...but not in a bad way... see i just wanted to be closer than we are...and i mean those guys dont share too much of themselves, they just kind of all know about each other...but since i kind of joined the group after a long while, i didnt know as much, and i just wanted to get to know everybody better...but in time i come to understand that one of the reasons i like those guys so much is that they dont share everything with everybody...ive met some people here who just talk about them too much....now i talk about me alot, but mostly its about what i like, or relating things i have previously done with what is happening at the moment....but usually i just kind of talk about what im thinking about...not about my past really. coleman, constantly tells me stories about his past, and explains to me about himself and why he is the way he is...and its cool, it doesnt bother me except when i hear the same story more than once a day...one time he told me one story like 10 times in one week, and bitch almost got smacked....but its cool, thats just coleman, and when he isnt telling the same story over and over, everything he has to say is cool and meaningful...and as for explaining himself, i appreciate that he is just trying to let me understand everything...he just doesnt understand that i already know without him ever saying anything....what can i say..i just got it like that. the guys at home though, are a different story, the very rarely talk about themselves, mostly just about whats going on in the world, about drugs, about tv, and about bitches....which is cool, not talking about yourself leaves more time for talking about other stuff....but i like people, even though i hate them so much, i really like them, so i like to hear about them sometimes...especially my friends, id like to know everything about them...what can i say, i have trust issuess. anyway, yeah, saw the homies, it was awesome, cant wait for the summer when we get to hang out even more.

In other news, i tried 5Meo-DiPT the other night....it was wierd, i took alot, probably more than i should have the first time...but it wasnt dangerous or anything, just a little unpleasant on the come down...the body load was cumbersome, and the gas was fucking murder....the sacrifices we make to ingest poisons....kinda strange when you really think about it.

also im thinking about writing a book, relating different people philosophies to the nature of the electron.... i guess its kind of stupid to put that on here, because it could get stolen...but hey you know what...fuck em, ill just write mine better and make more money.

lastly, im seriously going to start up the film production company this summer, Who Axed You productions will be filming around thirty minutes of short film this summer, probably five films of six minutes, or six of five...something like that, hopefully i can get help from friends on the homefront, because this is going to require people, actors, crew etc...jason...you better be ready to edit some shit homerice, i need your asian expertise. anyway, thats all for now folks, ill post if anything transpires...especially tomorrow after comms class...im hoping to talk to that girl after it....wish me luck